Probably missing my safe space that's why I'm here even if it's only for a while, to update a few words. It's fine. It is fine. I'm about to embark on my 4th posting in my final year of medical school. there were lots of bad days I have encountered so far when 2022 is just about to come to its half. I mean how can I be so bad at managing my stress but it just happened you know? It was mostly because I lost touch with my person, the individuals in my life that can offer me some comfort either by relating to my situation or just by listening to my cries and keeping me calm at night, just letting me know that I have them. Ortho posting was literally no fun. I have tried to find hope in every day I have gone through but it was so hard when I was being hard on myself. So far, I enjoyed Emergency Medicine posting the most though I had a few episodes because it was so hectic. My shift schedule was so messed up that I didn't have time to study even a few days before the exam.
The good news is here that I haven't told you- Faris has come back to Malaysia for good and another good news is, that he is currently living in the same state as me. Not that near but also not that far. It is just enough for me. We get to spend time occasionally well mostly because both of us are busy with our own life. He's busy with his work and I'm pretty occupied with my studies. Yet, I'm grateful that we still get to meet each other sometime, I get to take some time off from all my studies and just spend the day like a girl is what I called.
Pray that I'll come back here, again, okay. Perhaps when I've done my Pro-Exam and waiting for my horsemanship placement or when I've become a wife, whichever comes first.
