Annyeonghaseyo

It's the last day of 2014 yet it has been an amazing year for me. A lot of memories which I am so grateful to experience them. Joyous moment which I extremely will never forget those momentous moments. Since earlier of 2014, I was very happy and enjoyed my own life as a form four student. Having my best friend as my desk mate though I was very pleased. During our first addmath class, our jaws dropped and was totally amazed at how quick cikgu could solve that complicated addmath problem and yet we still could understand but of course we took time. And I remembered how sad Anis was during my last day at the school before moving into a new school. Until now, I keep that precious signatured pepero box. You know how much I love you my dearest.

Officially on 050214, I was nervous and very awkward at my new school which is now I'm totally fine with the environment. It was very difficult at first but I eventually adapted to the surrounding, to the food, friends, teachers and most important, bed and toilet. Luckily, I was not feeling homesick during the first month but I was feeling kinda lonely. I missed my friends at my former school a lot. I thought of them every single night before I slept. During my hard times, I would call my lifeguard, Bina just to have a conversation with her talking about how was life without me.

I would call her every time when I was feeling down and lonely. I talked to her for about half an hour once when I was feeling like I needed someone who knows me for years to talk to. As I'm doing my daily routine at the boarding school, I experienced unexpectable and beautiful things. I was extremely happy as I entered the school, I have two boys that I already know them very well. The friends that I was expecting to be a good guide for me if I was facing difficulties. Alhamdulillah, they helped me a lot but I was really opposite of what they were. I would rather treat others than them. It is sad now that I'm thinking how useless I was back then and I realized that both of them are pretty important for me. But unfortunately, I lost one of them. I'm still cannot believe the fact that I lost a friend who is really a good man. It happened just after I finished my final exam. And that night I was on bus going to Perak for a camp. It was tremendously a superb camping. I learnt how to cooperate with each other.  But on 011114, it became my nightmare. Now, I'm so sorry, I don't have any idea what was I'm thinking at that moment. I must be out of my mind. At first, I was told by my teacher that one of my schoolmates missing somewhere in the jungle. My respond was very annoying. I didn't realize that I could have lose him three days after that.


041114 The truth was revealed. All that happened was opposite to what I really wanted to hear. I was crying. My tears would never stop until I slept with the tears still rolling on my cheeks. I gathered my strength to recite yaasin for you. That night, for the first time I was feeling very guilty for not being a good friend to you when you were still there. I couldn't sleep and I was grateful for having my batch mates patting at my back saying, "It's enough shiqin. You gotta let him go peacefully. I'm sure you don't want to hurt him anymore. Please, let him go. redha. Every soul tastes death" 

I couldn't barely open my eyes after hours of crying and regretting my faults. Time went so fast and it was the time to pack things and go home for the school holiday. Spending a great year with awesome friends, batch mates, classmates, seniors and juniors. Thank you for everything and everyone who was there for me during my 2014 and hope you're still beside me next year and forever. Love you guys from the deepest of my heart.

I'm hoping that 2015 will be better than 2014. I will get the chance to create more memories in my senior year. Insya-Allah, I must study like crazy and struggle until my last breath to achieve 9A+ in SPM 2015. Let's go batch 98. We got this and let's prove we're the BEST.