I'm very grateful being part of 38's family which I thought it was very awkward at first and finally, I can adapt to it now. Being a boarding school student, you must have the strength to bear anything just like I'm doing jigeum. Once I'm at home, I will possibly cry and cry just when the thought of what I've been through before come out of nowhere. So here, I got an inspiration and got into a deeper conversation that would for sure make me cry like a baby because since I entered the school last year, I lost my own motivation. You know I was a person who had her own motivation and did not need any inspirational words from others.
Ok it was a shock that he realized that my recent result was getting worse. Act I'm not gonna compliment him for that but for the words that he gave. As a person who had just know me for a year, it was a good sign. No I mean he has a kind heart really. When it comes about studying, sometimes, I will feel not confident. And it shows when I only got 57 for my physics. Really, it broke my heart into pieces. Eventho as you all know I really damn hate physics but still I have to answer it in SPM. Now, I feel like I'm the worst in physics but it's a reality which i must face with faith.
And everything was at the climax when I got home last Tuesday. I really miss the old me. The old me who always did not care about other's talk. Plus, jigeum, I'm "someone" in the sch and life is just became more complicated. So many thinking have to be done before doing something. So many hearts to be thought before doing something. Ok I got this.
Anyway, I'm hoping for the universe to pray for me as I'm facing quite a serious problem with my ownself.
