Annyeonghaseyo


Being at home should be something that i always hope it will create a great moment. As it is, but sometimes it comes with great challenge too. Seeing your cat which is used to be a normal cat, now she's disabled, has to drag its feet to move, with a very innocent face but not even trace of wetness around its eyes. Gosh, very strong. Even my eyes turn watery just by looking at her. There must be hikmah beyond all this things I believe.

Today is 17th birthday of arwah Piqin. I miss him. I miss having a short but memorable conversation with him even though at the end, I would get mad at him and asked him to stop calling me "that" but with a curl of smile on my face. Dear, I miss him a lot. We just met last year and Allah took him away from all of us on the same year. Alright, happy birthday to you. Live peacefully there. Al-fatihah


Lately, I'm being really positive with myself and more surprising, I try to influence others to think positive too. Ahaha it is very awkward act. Now, I think I am more stable in most all aspects, spiritual, mental and physical. But last two weeks I was so pressured and stressed out with the surrounding when I came back to school from holiday. It happened bcs I got so many things to handle, to think very careful, and to digest in my brain.


I had issue with my emotions, with my friends. The climax was when I decided that I had to let it go. I cried as soon as I got on my bed. Most probably, that was the first and only time I ever cried bcs of someone who I really love. I do love her bcs she was the first person to welcome me in the alien environment. How could you not cry after having a huge misunderstanding with her? Thank God, I have others who are willing to hear all my problems. Act I prefer to just keep it by myself.

I know you read this but I still want to say something that you might don't want to know. Sometimes, you can make peaced off too. Sometimes, you can make me curl a smile too. But most of the time, you make me aware of what the world is.