I finished my seminar presentation this morning and towards the end i managed to make everyone else more confused somehow. It was such a disappointment. I spent my nights preparing for this presentation but it ended up terribly. I just don't know what else can I do with myself. I am just suck at everything I shouldn't be. I spent hours in front of my screen doing research here and there but it was not enough. I skipped my meals just for the sake of this but still ended up looking stupid in front of others. 

I just feel like giving up

I just feel like a hopeless soul

I have been constantly feeling down. Sometimes, I am doing well but there's some nights where I cannot sleep despite how tired I am. I'm afraid to tell or express it to anyone because this happen too often this week alone. I would be dragging others into my own problems and that is not right thing to do. I'm afraid Faris gonna be sick of me being weak and helpless, crying all night. 

Last night, I could sleep. I had this like headache and it was painful. I took PCM which Alhamdulillah it worked eventually.